In this modern technological age, we can see there is a noticeable disconnect between the online social networking world, and the factual world of our real actions. This can be seen too in the gap between the computer program generated weather reports and the actual weather. These examples help to show how the reactive ideas we automatically believe about physical events can and do become real in and of themselves. We take the computer or brain model for being the actual reality. The weather reports are no longer directly about the weather, they’re about the computer program. You can see this in all walks of life. Businessmen take their business beliefs as their model and can become disconnected from what’s actually going on in the day to day world of the real business. We develop a brain fog, a sticky mass made up of visualizations and patterns in our head that are formed from reactive experience, coupled with wishful thinking, along with a good dose of desire and fear. They’re mixed thoroughly to create and projcet a pattern we take to be reality. We then project or force this onto the environment and further reinforce the pattern. It has no direct link to reality but is actually a mixed up mess of associations, often disconnected from what we would see if we could see clearly.
The innocence of the child can clear up this brain fog by enabling us to look around with a different seeing, one that doesn’t rely solely on the computer model, but which relies on what we’re actually witnessing in our day-to-day experience without a forced projection. The computer models become the reality and the weather man forgets to look out the window to check the forecast. He may even refuse to refine the program in order to bring it more in line with the real weather, as that could affect his pride, his boss, or the bureaucracy, and put a damper on his career. This creates a separate force, holding us in a fairyland of belief, rather than basing what we’re doing on what we actually see. The clearing of the fog is by the sunshine that comes from the child, from the innocence.
States of mind can be the central revolving factor in our life. Our individual state of mind causes all our beliefs and our actions to spring forth, and we never question it. Instead of questioning our state of mind and trying to see what’s really going on, we try and force the belief system of our current state of mind onto the world, by attempting to change the world to fit the state of mind. All of our problems and their solutions spring from the state of mind, as well. This can be seen very easily in others, when you see that their state of mind is really not their own, but comes from someone else, it’s inherited. They can’t see this. They think it is their own unique individual thinking. It revolves around getting rid of the tensions we allow to be placed on us through these same states of mind. We dump on other people or the world to get these tensions off our back, which is only a temporary solution. The real solution would be to question the state of mind, and see where the tensions are really coming from.
You watch a movie, then notice the next day while you’re working, the movie has your inner movie working along trying to hash it out. The experience of watching the movie is taken by the mind as being real and therefore has to be worked out as if it happened. This is just like working four or five hard shifts, and then taking two days off for the mind to quiet down and process the mess. The experience is binding. If you are the type with a very strong personality and mind that are outward oriented, you never get a break from it, you try to still control it all, so that you can win. This means that the experience is binding to you and you can’t drop it.
The last statement shows why isolations, times spent alone, are so important. If you spend enough time out of pressing experiences, the inner movie starts to die down and you get a little breathing room. This could scare you half to death if you’re the type that’s identified with the inner movie, it would feel as if you’re losing your rich inner life. You don’t want quiet or stillness because that threatens that sense of self, or the self as it is and relates to the ego identified with the inner movie. If you sit long enough in the quiet, this sense of self gets threatened, you want to rush back into experience in order to regain that feeling of self, of life from drama.
Today’s social networking provides a sense of self to many, keeping Facebook and Twitter in business. It provides an effective escape from fear of loss of self, and sadly, from facing the Truth about what we really are. Isolations are important because they show us this inner movie, and the broad extent of its power over us. Quiet time spent alone reveals our inner self through the process of allowing the play and drama of modern life and its character-self to wind down.
We have to have a contraction of our attention from the manifested world, to save our energy and create an aim and direction; simplify our life. But at some point the danger is this contraction could become the search in itself and an end in itself rather than just part of the means. The contraction has to be given up(actually, it’s removed) for a total relaxation, once the contraction has done its work. In other words, once we find that thinking and planning and doing in our practice have come to a dead end, then we have to give it up once we’ve hit the wall beyond which our mind cannot go, and allow the inner relaxation, so that we can receive.
First, we contract or withdraw our energy and attention to make the machine efficient and gain a vector and direction to get surely headed in the right way. Then, at some point there has to be complete inner relaxation, because the contraction of itself can’t give us the answer, the answer has to come from within through the relaxation. We get out of our own way. We must allow ourselves to receive, once we have improved the receiving mechanism: the intuition.
Welcome to the first post of the Mystic Missal blog.
I’ve decided to gather up whatever brain cells remain, and enter the wild world of blogging. I’ll be posting thoughts and photos every few days, and hope to generate interest and inquiry along the lines of self-discovery.
As soon as the next Missal Newsletter comes out, hopefully this Friday, I’ll post some musing along the lines of inquiring minds.