Another thing hidden by the brain fog is the dual aspect of our machine and its life. Our lives are largely the process of a machine generating energy, like a treadmill. The dual motion of two pistons, action and reaction, experience and experiencer, hooked to a central drive shaft, is transferring our energy away. We can see this by observing how we spend much more energy in our lives than is necessary to simply get by. We lead mechanical lives of dissipation, which are not of our own making, but from the states of mind we have bought into. We are hooked up to the treadmill in the rat race, and in our personal emotional lives as well. Our emotional reactions to our spouses, our parents, our careers, whatever belief system we bought into, drives the machine, takes away our energy, and we never question it. We can never solve this problem from its own level. The harder we push, the harder too are we pushed back. We think that we know what we’re doing, that we want what we want. It’s all being forced upon us, until we begin to question it.
This questioning takes a certain amount of courage, and trauma perhaps, but in the end run it saves a lot of energy. We have to be able to face the fact that we do not want to question ourselves, our very beliefs, our sacred cows at whose altars we pray. Our defenses automatically jump up whenever anyone else calls us on it, keeping our ego and the system of belief safe.
In this modern technological age, we can see there is a noticeable disconnect between the online social networking world, and the factual world of our real actions. This can be seen too in the gap between the computer program generated weather reports and the actual weather. These examples help to show how the reactive ideas we automatically believe about physical events can and do become real in and of themselves. We take the computer or brain model for being the actual reality. The weather reports are no longer directly about the weather, they’re about the computer program. You can see this in all walks of life. Businessmen take their business beliefs as their model and can become disconnected from what’s actually going on in the day to day world of the real business. We develop a brain fog, a sticky mass made up of visualizations and patterns in our head that are formed from reactive experience, coupled with wishful thinking, along with a good dose of desire and fear. They’re mixed thoroughly to create and projcet a pattern we take to be reality. We then project or force this onto the environment and further reinforce the pattern. It has no direct link to reality but is actually a mixed up mess of associations, often disconnected from what we would see if we could see clearly.
The innocence of the child can clear up this brain fog by enabling us to look around with a different seeing, one that doesn’t rely solely on the computer model, but which relies on what we’re actually witnessing in our day-to-day experience without a forced projection. The computer models become the reality and the weather man forgets to look out the window to check the forecast. He may even refuse to refine the program in order to bring it more in line with the real weather, as that could affect his pride, his boss, or the bureaucracy, and put a damper on his career. This creates a separate force, holding us in a fairyland of belief, rather than basing what we’re doing on what we actually see. The clearing of the fog is by the sunshine that comes from the child, from the innocence.
States of mind can be the central revolving factor in our life. Our individual state of mind causes all our beliefs and our actions to spring forth, and we never question it. Instead of questioning our state of mind and trying to see what’s really going on, we try and force the belief system of our current state of mind onto the world, by attempting to change the world to fit the state of mind. All of our problems and their solutions spring from the state of mind, as well. This can be seen very easily in others, when you see that their state of mind is really not their own, but comes from someone else, it’s inherited. They can’t see this. They think it is their own unique individual thinking. It revolves around getting rid of the tensions we allow to be placed on us through these same states of mind. We dump on other people or the world to get these tensions off our back, which is only a temporary solution. The real solution would be to question the state of mind, and see where the tensions are really coming from.
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